So, I haven’t actually vented on here in awhile, but I feel like right now is a good time..
Currently fucking with my life right now is I have to pay rent on September 1st. Regularly, this wouldn’t be a problem. It’s just that the job I got, that I thought I would have been able to start last week since I was just transferring, isn’t going to have me start working until the 25th at the earliest, but for sure the 31st, leaving me, at most 6 days to come up with rent money. I’m donating plasma again so I can have some help, but that will only get me $150 by the time rent is due, and I need $324. So, I (reluctantly) decided to sell my drum set. So far, no one has said they’ll buy it, which is worrying me cause I really need money. I feel like a shitty friend/roommate, cause regularly I would be able to pay rent on time and it not be a problem, my job is just being stupid and not hiring me when I thought they would. I mean, seriously, when I first got hired back home, it was 5 days after my interview, which was 2 days after I applied. Aside from all of this, I was informed today by my roommate that if I don’t have the rent money on time then I have to move out. I know this decision isn’t up to him, his mom is making him do that, but at the same time this is just stressing me out more.
Also, along with this rent situation, I’m trying to get my housing situation settled at school since I’m not technically allowed to live off campus until I’m 21, and my mom doesn’t want to lie and say I’m living with a relative.
So, so far that’s two things that are taking up my time and mental stress. Aside from this, my brain decided that it’s still in love with Leticia. So now, I’m dealing with rent, housing, and my brain is feeling all remorse and sad, remembering the old days when we were both happy and how we could probably be happy again if we wanted to. I just don’t know if she wants to. Hell, I don’t know if I really want to, or I just didn’t realize how much I loved her, so it’s taking longer to move on…
That’s about all I have.. Just really hoping someone buys my drum set soon. Once that’s out of the way, I’ll be able to think more clearly..