Life of a musician

Until the time is right

Fail iPhone. You did not put in the lone breaks like I asked you to when I was typing my last post. Fail..

So I got my iPhone yesterday!! It’s freaking sweet. And there’s an app for this so I can update this from my phone, like I’m doing now. Actually got out of the apartment this weekend. Went to the lake with some peeps and got Braums. I can honestly say this is the most fun I’ve had in a long while. Figured out more of the situation I’m in. Now I’m just trying to think it all through more before I commit one way or the other. Even then, it could still not go how I hope, but I’d rather think about it more and fix more things than rushing into it and screwing it up more. Socom and that kingdom game tonight. Dueces

I don’t know why, but i have been able to stay up really late the past couple of days and not be that tired. It is weird. I’m playing this new game on facebook called Kingdoms of Camelot. It’s pretty fun. I didn’t think I’d like it because I usually don’t go for these types of games, but I actually like this one. I just hate how long it takes to build stuff. It’d be better if you could build multiple things at one time, even if it made the time longer.

It’s almost Saturday!! iPhone!!!!! More importantly, Leticia’s going to be up here!! I can finally straighten things out and function a lot better and more healthier on a regular basis.

Found out that we’re playing a piece called Bonham in percussion ensemble this semester. Everyone kept asking each other, “What part did you get? Do you know who has the drum set part?” I’m assuming, since it wasn’t posted, and since I’ve had the drum set part since last semester, that I am playing drum set. I am very excited about this and cannot wait until we start rehearsing it (hopefully next week). 

Again, I don’t really have anything else to say. Adios

Just rewrote my paper proposal for theory. After being kind of ticked off the first time doing it and not seeing how I had made a mistake, I decided to reread it and I realized that I did not propose anything the first time. This time, however, I believe I proposed my topic vigorously. 

I’m finally working on timpani in my lessons! I told my professor today that I felt like I wasn’t busy enough and that I want to work on timpani since we haven’t done it yet, and he agreed so now I’m working on timpani. So for my lesson next week, I have to prepare the Sarabande from Bach’s Cello Suite in d minor, I have to be able to play all of the drum set part of Mancini’s Concerto for TImpani and Drum Set, and I have several short timpani etudes. Should be a fun week. Busy, but fun.

I finally moved my drum set into the music building, after buying new heads for them. Now, I don’t have to worry about there not being a drum set to practice on, because mine should always be in there, unless someone asks to take it. I’m about to get a lot of double bass time in. My legs are going to burn, and I’m pretty sure there will be some people who might be annoyed with the sound of a bass drum in the downstairs practice rooms, but oh well. I’m allowed to practice down there, my professor is fine with me working on double bass, so I’m going to practice it. I can also practice more for the recital gig I’m playing. I’m ready to get lots of practice time in!! I’ve pretty much given up on buying a new drum set right now. I’m just going to have to make the best with what I got and wait until I can afford a new drum set. Plus, by then I’ll know exactly what I want from my drum set, so it’ll be easier to choose one.

I think I’ve babbled for long enough.. Goodnight world (or good morning, if you want to look at it that way)

Today was a weird day. I started the day like I do everyday, then it quickly turned to shit (in my head) and I started feeling down. Then as it moved on, things got better and I was able to enjoy more of what was going on around me. Overall, I’d say today was a good day. The thing that made me feel crappy isn’t even that important in the long run. I just needed some time to chill and get my mind on other things.

Speaking of other things…

This weekend needs to hurry up and get here. My life is basically (but not really) on hold for the time being, until I get things straightened out. I’m at the point now that if it doesn’t work out this weekend, then I’m pretty much on hold until after college. Right now, it is pretty much getting in the way and is adding excess stress that I could honestly go without. But I’m committed right now. I don’t want to give up. It wouldn’t even be me giving up, it’d be me moving on and trying to get my life in order, so when I have to look for a job, I’m not just thrown into the unknown, not prepared.

I always feel like I should say more, but that’s pretty much all I have. I would just like to add that The Rev was an amazing musician and he contributed a lot to the music world. He is my main inspiration for drumming, and he helps me get through some tough times. So adios, and I’ll catch ya’ll when I post again.

I’ve been thinking lots about my life and
How quick I’d wash it down the drain
Past tense, the future, nothing matters now
I act on my own and I’m to blame

Living’s a wicked dream, when things turn out all wrong
We’re all so weak, no matter how strong, yeah

I tried running away from me
Convince me that I’ve grown, but I can’t
Change so unnaturally, demons they follow me
I quit running away from me
Convinced that I have grown, but found out
All my reasons for insanity, all a part of me

I don’t like that you’re calling me a liar
I don’t like that you found out I’m a snake
Been sneaking around for far too long now
I don’t like how fast my intentions fade

Karma has beat me down, the worst is yet to come
Many mistakes and still I’m so young, yeah

I tried running away from me
Convince me that I’ve grown, but I can’t
Change so unnaturally, demons they follow me
I quit running away from me
Convinced that I have grown, but found out
All my reasons for insanity, all a part of me

I can’t
Count how many times
Awakened in fear, nightly
Palms sweating
Dreams
Of promises I’ve made
To no one but myself
Have been
Crushed daily

Don’t lend me your hand
I can’t trust my self
So how can you trust me?

We’ve all made selfish, bad decisions
We’ve all tried dishing out the blame
Convinced ourselves of our own actions
My problem is I’ll never change

In doubt, some good comes out
I’ll fold before its time
Can’t promise you that its my last time, yeah

I tried running away from me
Convince me that I’ve grown, but I can’t
Change so unnaturally, demons they follow me
I quit running away from me
Convinced that I have grown, but found out
All my reasons for insanity, all a part of me

Prayers won’t help you now
All the love’s gone too far

Prayers won’t help you now
All the love’s gone too far

I’m scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, cause my insanity

I’m scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, cause my insanity

I’m scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, cause my insanity

I’m scarred, yeah
Demons they follow me, cause my insanity

Demons they follow me, cause my insanity 

Is it wrong to care too much? Is it wrong to have too much love for one person? Is it wrong to have such feelings towards someone, not knowing if they share the same for you? Is it wrong to want to fix something that some people believe cannot be fixed? 

I feel that I’m trying to do too many things at once, and because of this I am having trouble focusing on one thing. I have music, I have composing, I have video games, I want to learn computer language, I’m trying to mend wounds, wounds that will take a lot of time to fix. I think I need to focus on a couple of things, that way I can perfect each one as I go along, instead of trying to do everything at once and taking longer to reach the perfection to make a living.

-Speech

So I got the music for the two songs I’m playing drum set on. And by music I mean the vocal part with the guitar and piano parts. No drum parts. My first thought was, “Great, now I’m going to have to write out the drum part. Oh well,” but that soon changed into, “I’m just going to copy the pages and write in key things.” Thinking about it, that’s going to work out better and it’s more like how typical drum parts are set up. It gives you a style, points out big hits, aaannndddd go. So basically, if two really good drummers are trying to get the same job, the one who is more likable as a person has a better chance. Besides that, it’s down to the preference of whoever is hiring them. I don’t know how I moved from the topic of the drum part to getting hired for gigs. Moving on..

I reserved my iPhone to be picked up this Saturday!! So freaking excited. 

That’s all I can think about writing right now. I’ll probably be back on later. 

“I’m just.. saiyn.” -Vegeta

This new clan on Socom is working out really well. I’m getting more kills, I’m not dying as much, my stats are turning out great. Why couldn’t this happen in any of the other clans? Oh well.

So it’s 1:30 in the morning, I’m hungry, and I don’t have anything to snack on… Grrr

I get an iPhone this weekend!! But more importantly, Leticia is coming up to visit! I’ve been waiting forever for this. Fingers crossed!

I’m playing drum set for some MT’s senior recital and I get the music tomorrow (Sunday). Shouldn’t be too hard. I’ve listened to the songs and they sound simple enough. I’m just happy that I’m basically playing a gig. I’m getting my foot in the door. Hopefully, this is the first of many to come. I’d love to just play in the pit for musicals. The environment down there is professional, but relaxed. Plus, everyone has a good time together. 

That’s all for now. 

Speech out

Problem: The clan I play with on Socom sucks and we keep losing. Losing=bad stats and an angry Speech.

Solution: Make a new name and join the clan that Spectre has been playing with, who ACTUALLY wins and ACTUALLY uses teamwork, a concept that my clan tries to do, but fails miserably. Winning=good stats and a very pleased Speech.

Being happy is essential to life, and when I’m having a bad day, there’s nothing like coming home, getting on Socom and kicking some serious ass. So winning isn’t such a bad thing (yes I realize I’m repeating myself, get over it).

On a side note, I wonder who actually reads these, besides the people who are following me.. Hmmm, I should make a poll on here so I can see. I’ll probably be disappointed because no one is really reading what I post. Oh well. I’ll believe someone is and I’ll continue to post and vent.

Adios, my brothers and sisters

Well, today’s been a good day so far. Had Chipotle for dinner, watched Wall-E. Now I’m playing socom. Let me tell you, it is pissing me off. I’m tired of losing. I know it’s just a game, but the reason I play games is to enjoy myself while playing, and it’s not enjoyable when game after game you keep losing. Yeah, I’ll admit it, I’m a little competitive. So what? 

Ugh…

On another note, I’m going to look into programming and I might start writing these in that language. I haven’t decided yet.

Tah tah for now

So, after dropping my Public Speaking class and being able to sleep in til 8:30 instead of 7:30, I went to work and finished my theory homework. Then I set up Beth’s computer on her desk for her. After I finished, it was time to get off so here I am, randomly typing away in the percussion practice room lobby, known as the pentagon. 

I’m going to work harder on not over reacting over every little thing. I get annoyed when other people do it so it would be very hypocritical of me to over react. That being said, it’s not like I over react as much as I used to. It’s just when I really care about something or someone, I tend to hold on until it bleeds. I don’t mean to do this; I’m just scared that whatever I care about will just one day get up and say, “Thanks for the fun times, I’m out of here!” I’m making progress, though. I just need to start trusting the people I care about more. 

That’s all for now.. I’ll leave ya’ll with a picture to laugh at. 

So far my night has not gone as planned, which is fine because I didn’t fully expect it to.

First off, there was only one marimba in the practice rooms and it was being used by someone else. I couldn’t go get one of the other ones because all the dancers/theatre kids had some sort of audition or call-back and were crowding up the hallway. So, practicing marimba was off the list.

Secondly, I wasn’t able to practice double bass like I wanted because somebody took my pedal. So I just ended up practicing drum set and didn’t worry about the double pedal.

Did most of my homework. The rest I can finish up in the morning. All the while, I’m texting Leticia, talking to her in spanish thanks to Google Translate. I decide to call her and she informs me that she was about to call someone else. I don’t know why but this made me a little upset, but it’s perfectly understandable. I really hate how I overreact sometimes. Oh well, she’s supposed to call me back later.

Now, I am needing to work on my project of arranging two different songs into a medley. Should be fun. I just need to figure out what I want it to sound like then I can start the hard part.

That’s all for now. I have a feeling I’m going to get addicted to this thing.. Oh well….

So I decided I’m going to try this whole blogging thing.. Should be fun.

So plans for the rest of the day/night: Practice, practice, practice, do homework, text Leticia. Maybe call her again, who knows.

Ugh, I really hope that things go the way I’m wanting them to go… I’m such a dumb ass for what happened. Oh well, lesson learned. I just hope it’s not too late..